Venus in Retrograde in Blue (Movement I)

Ha ha....what did one co-dependent partner of the past say to the other?
I am so alone without you.

Not really even funny...

Oh, Hera...

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Why?

Sometimes I would like nothing more than to curl up in the warm familiarity of your arms

To surrender to the frustration and fogginess and dysfunction
To sacrifice myself for that semblance of comfort

I am a fool to believe that building that tower up again would be anything but a crumbling that I've witnessed dozens of times before. I know this.

I want to know the answers now
to the questions that can only be answered with experience
distance
intention

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Transformation

Out of the illusion of scarcity...into perspective...arriving at unexpected abundance

I was not, I am not
expecting too much

I am ready and receptive...
I am willing and open...

Whole and ripe

The time is right

Simple pleasures this morning

the beads of oil that linger on the side of my coffee cup

the intensity of dried strawberries

shooting the breeze with the construction guys, telling "dirty" jokes that are so lame (but hilarious to me) that they can't help but giggle

knowing and trusting that all is as it needs to be right now

watching myself travel along depths and heights, and finding peace in the work towards balance

mmm simple pleasures....so easy (sometimes) to maintain this perspective....

Best quote of the day so far (when I asked a man how he's doing today): "I'm great. Even when I'm terrible, I'm still doing great."

I don’t brag, I mostly boast

Oooh, update!

I grew a garden (seriously, I ain't no plant killer) then I moved away at peak season.

Love and let go, I guess (in oh so many ways, siiiiiiigh).

Here's what the garden produced successfully:

Returning from last year: carrots, cilantro, strawberries, bachelor buttons, dahlias, kale, chard,

From seed: green lettuce, snow peas, sugar snap peas, cucumbers, blue pole beans, red whirly bird nasturtiums, sunflowers, corn, chives

From starts (from Jenni): chocolate mint, bleeding heart, borage, fennel

From starts (from the market): calendula, purple and green basil, lemon cucumber, squashes, red lettuce

From weeds: daisies, red clover

Also in yard: foxglove, snapdragons, cherry trees, salmonberry bushes, apple tree.

Now I don't live near the garden, but I hear it is still producing and really weedy!

Anyways, I am an earth worshipper and will continue to be, because all I did was weed and water, and I didn't even do that very well, so THANK YOU PLANET EARTH FOR BEING SO AMAZING and letting me learn in my garden.
My metaphor-garden is seeming to be blossoming too in just as many unexpected ways...call for details!!

Love abundant.

Oh and in other news, salal berries, huckleberries, red huckleberries, wild blackberries, himalayan blackberries, thimbleberries (it's a little late) and blueberries are all blowing my mind with their deliciousness.
Hope all is well in your parts of the world, my beautiful people that I love....